A Legacy

Best quote of the day by my grandmother, "Michael Jackson is a black man!?" lol

News breaks and spreads fast while the world mourns for the lost of our 50 year old King of Pop Michael Jackson by what suspected to be a Cardiac Arrest. Numerous radio stations and MTV channels are playing his songs and music video over and over again. News channels and internet sources are showing fans' reaction all around the globe. Pictures of people mourning and crying and screaming and pulling their hair and throwing their body to the ground are seen everywhere in the net. My heart goes out to all these people.

Almost.

Come on people, "We'll miss you?", "I'll listen to your songs all day?", "No one can replace you?" Snap out of it! How long has it been since you last listen to any of MJ's song? When is the last time you search for any of his mp3 album in the midst of your music folders? How many times have you choose Jason Mraz or Lady GaGa over him? Now he's dead and you suddenly feel remorseful and start to miss him? Where were you when he's still alive and kickin'?

Over at least a decade people have been mocking him, his skin tone, his face transformation, his nose, his law suit. Google image on Michael Jackson and you'll see even the 1st image is a mockery to that man. For years you abandoned him, you choose to follow the tide and go for other pop culture icons, he's yesterday, he's history, he's old and he's not cool anymore. Now he's dead, people start paying attention, and you feel it's cool to join in the bandwagon and shouts "WE LOVE YOU MICHAEL!" You start talking about MJ in your FB status, posting his lyrics, his quotes, uploading his songs, his images, or maybe even create a friggin' "How well do you know MJ" quiz in FB. All because it's the IN thing now.

A bunch of trend-followers.

Nobody talks about him when he's alive, except sometimes when the tabloids ran out of story to cover, or they need some new faces in the gossip column. I bet if he didn't die today, he'd still be invisible in many people's life, radios will still be over-playing Poker Face or other rapping trash. Now that the hype is on, I wonder how long will this Hype last until they start finding other things to keep themselves busy with?

Now, I'm not anti-MJ, I love his songs and dance moves, there are days when I watch his MTV all day long from a VCD album I bought. But there is a friggin' difference between paying respect, and following the GOLD DARN TIDE! Everyone's doing it, it doesn't make you any cooler repeating it! That man lived a Legend, he has been through his best years and passed down a legacy which I believe no one can top it. (well except for Jesus Christ but he's an exception because he's...well....Jesus)


And for the real hardcore fans, yes he's a great man and I know he might have somehow touch or CHANGED your life, but he's still a man. Remorse for him for a few days, wept a few tears, have a couple of shots or even set up a blog for him but after that PLEASE go back to your life. You might have a wife and kids OR your parents to take care of OR PLEASE at least have a job to go back to. And for some please don't cut or kill yourself, it won't make the situation any better, trust me. Cos you'll either end up at different places OR you will end up at the same place which you won't be happy seeing the pain and punishment he might have to go through. Go back to your life, if you don't have one I strongly suggest you FIND one, urgently. Because I know some hardcore MJ fans spend their life collecting his stuffs on the expense of their old folks money. I know this, because I'm a fan and I watched a lot of documentaries. :)

Anyway I'm just here to let out my fustration after seeing all the commotions in my Facebook updates, I feel so much better letting it out. But I do hope it carries out a message, appreciate the people aound you now, so that you don't remorse as regretfull when they are not around. Especially your parents. They may not sing as good as MJ, nor dance as good as MJ, not leave a legacy like him. But they give birth to you, and raised you. You're their legacy. Make them proud.

R.I.P Michael, you're forever the King of Pop


Note : Above messages are only for certain trend-followers which the authors despise, it is not directly shoot towards any certain people the author knows of. Please do not take the above article as offensive but if you still remains offended the author doesn't care s*** anyway. have a nice day :)

Tired Week

So exhausted this week, juggling between work, church, helping friends and some personal projects, is just too tough for me especially when I'm still suffering from headache, toothache, plus muscle pain from my 2 days intense exercise in the gym. I never felt more in love with my bed, still got 5 hours to go before my date with Monday Blues. Alright, nite guys, hope y'all have a better weekend.

Zzzzz....

Run Free!!!

Awaken by a gently breeze brushing her cheek, she opens her eyes, looks around and find herself on what it seems like the top of a highland, surrounded with hills that forms a valley and grass so green that it separated itself clearly from the light blue sky. She stands up on her feet, looks up and saw a herd of moving creature standing on top of a rising ground, not far away from herself. Filled with curiosity, she move herself closer towards the herd of creature.

The nearer she walks towards the creatures, the clearer the creatures' appearance. It was a herd of horses, tall, broad, strong in sight. Their fur so beautiful and shinny when the sunlight reflects to the creatures. She was filled with excitement but take slow steps, hoping not to surprise the creatures with her sudden appearance. The horses noticed her presence and surprisingly, was not startled. Taking a bold step, she walks closer and placed her hand on their body, and the creature remains calm, as if they are used having her around them. Filled with joy, she walks towards each and every horses, touching them and feeling their soft warm furs with her arms and cheek, enjoying the cool breeze blowing though the valley.

After a while playing with the horses, she is curious with why does the creature choose to remain on the same spot without going anywhere, "they should run freely across the field, out of this valley and over the mountain, run to anywhere their heart desires, be anywhere they wish to! "

So she started to make the horses move, she shouts, "run! run free!", nothing happens. She start patting each and every one of the horses one by one, pulling their tail, touching their head, pushing them to move at least an inch away from where they are, but the horses remained still. She gives up, panting and exhausted with with her effort, thinking to herself, "why are they not moving at all? Why do they insist to stay here...?"

She lay down on the grass beside the gentle creatures, looking at them, smiling. The gentle breeze start brushing her cheeks again, this time slowly putting her to sleep....

Crystal River

She wakes up, finds herself floating on a river, filled with stars, dazzling, so shiny and glittering she can barely open her eyes. She realized that it's also filled with different forms of shapes, hexagons, pentagons, triangles, octagons, diamonds, squares, ovals, prisms and every other shapes you could possibly imagine. She has never seen anything like it, "this is the most beautiful scene I've ever seen..." she said to herself in awe. The surroundings are dark, contrasting the glow shining from the river around her. Not knowing where she's heading, she lets the tide bring her wherever it intends to stop by, not knowing what awaits at the end of the stream. "If it's heading towards hell, so be it..." she told herself, because it's so soothing and comfortable that it slowly puts her to sleep...

She wakes up not long after that, she looks around and realise that she's still in the ward room, without shining stars or any form of shapes, just cold, plain walls surrounding her. She sighs, relieved that it was a dream, but continued thinking about the wonderful scene she just saw.

My mother had this dream around the mid of January, her eyes were shining bright as I see her describing to me about the wonderful dream she had like a little girl explaining her experience of having the sweetest, most colorful Popsicle she has ever ate. She told me one night at the month of March when I was accompanying her in the hospital.

What the dream was about, I don't know, I just smiled while listening to her because she looks really happy. While illustrating her dream, I'm hoping that one day, I too will encounter the same dream she had experienced that night :)

Mother's Day

Wow, it's been 3 months since I last sign in, or posted anything new, I'm lucky I can still remember my blogspot account password. It's been a really chaotic period for me since the early of march, that's why there's no updates on March AhLost, sorry...

It's Mother's Day today, I feel really happy for all of you to be able to greet your mother. If you ask me, I don't particularly do anything big on Mother's Day, cos I realize that I don't need Anna Jarvis to declare a day for me to occasionally honor her, but the fact is we should be making them happy everyday. Guys it's cool to do extra stuffs on Mother's Day, but my point is, try your best to make your mom feel embraced by you daily. Most simple gesture, hug them when you get home, praise their cooking is nice though it's the same ol' meal you ate for years, or give them a call frequently for those who studies or work overseas. You might think they are busy and have their own way of killing time, but nothing beats listening your voice to fill the empty hole in their heart caused by your absence.

They have been with you since your birth, feed you, dress you, bath you, hug you, kiss you, stay up all night for you, be happy for you, be sad for you, get angry for you, get hurt for you. They have done so much, what did we do in repay? Nothing. You might think you done something to make up for them throughout the years, but I tell you the truth, it's nothing compare to what she has done for you all along. Is it so much to show a little more love?

I lost my mother in the battle of cancer on the 30th of March, this year 2009. It started as a tumor in the Cologne, then spread to the rest of the body organ most aggressively in the Liver.We missed her dearly, but the fact that she's now free from her suffering and in the embrace of God, is a great consolation for our family.

I no longer have the chance to hug and kiss her, but you do; she will never get to listen to my voice at the other end of the phone, but your mother could. It's all up to you. Do whatever you can for them while you still can, do what I can never ever do anymore.

Thanks Ren and Cherry, for concerning about my absence during April and March, I barely even step into my blog for months, let alone other people's blog, I especially missed the great prank pulled by WenPink on her engagement prank, that's a really good one Wen, too bad I'm not around to get fooled by it, heh..

Happy Mother's Day to all mothers in the world, it's truly a blessing to become a mother, a blessing that God has taken away from Men. You reading this, I hope your mother is a happy blessed mother, for having a baby like you.

Happy Mother's Day mummy... :)

The consequences....

Happy Chinese New Year Everyone~~

Alright I know it's a bit be-lated... but hey it's the thoughts that counts right?

For this year's CNY me and my family were planning for a Bali trip which has planned a few months back, it was then canceled because my mom was admitted to the hospital suddenly for certain illness. So I bought an extra ticket back to my hometown for CNY. But when I got there they decided to flew her over to KL hospital so I have to get another flight to KL BACK!!!

So imagine this, cancel Bali ticket, purchase Sabah ticket, then purchase KL ticket, all done in a very short period which means only expensive flights available, the paiiiiiiin in my wallet...

But this year CNY has been a very special and blessed one for me, as I realize how important the togetherness of one family. One shouldn't take for granted that our loved ones will always be around us for eternity, they might just leave us one day without any prior notice and left us feeling regret for all the things that we have done and haven't done for them. So yeah our CNY is celebrated everyday in the ward, and my mom wasn't able to consume solid food for nearly 1 month, but we get to be with each other everyday, that's it really a huge blessing for me.

So anyway, my mom hasn't fully recovered, but she's in really good spirit, as beautiful as she always is. I started working, my sister starting school, and my father continue being the most lovable husband for my mom. Everything is good, this is gonna be a good year, hope it's the same for you all.

Kudos 2009 :D